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August 27 ... and Seven-Eighths
TODAY IN THE DARKNESS of the dim forest clearing, the green velvet landscape inside the lobby doors, the hotelТs fire alarm goes off. One long ringing bell, it comes out the front doors so loud the newscaster has to shout, УWell, this sounds like trouble.Ф
The summer people, the men, their hair all combed back, dark and wiry with some styling product. The women all blond. They shout to be heard over the alarmТs din.
Misty Wilmot, the greatest artist throughout history, sheТs grabbing her way through the crowd, clawing and pulling herself toward the stage in the Wood and Gold Dining Room. Clutching at the elbows and hipbones of these skinny people. The whole wall behind the stage draped and ready for the unveiling. The mural, her work still hidden. Sealed. Her gift to the future. Her time bomb.
Her million smears of paint put together the right way. The urine of cows eating mango leaves. The ink sacs from cuttlefish. All that chemistry and biology.
Her kid somewhere in this mob of people. Tabbi.
The alarm ringing and ringing, Misty steps up on a chair. She steps up on a table, table six where Tabbi was laid out dead, where Misty found out about Angel Delaporte being stabbed to death. Standing above the crowd in her white dress, people looking up, summer men grinning up at her, MistyТs not wearing any underwear.
Her born-again wedding dress tucked between her bony thighs, Misty shouts, УFire!Ф
Heads turn. Eyes look up at her. In the dining room doorway, Detective Stilton appears and starts swimming through the crowd.
Misty shouts, УGet out! Save yourselves!Ф Misty shouts, УIf you stay here, something terrible will happen!Ф
PeterТs warnings. Misty sprays them out above the crowd.
УWe will kill every one of GodТs children to save our own.Ф
The curtain looming behind her, covering the whole wall, her own self-portrait, what Misty doesnТt know about herself. What she doesnТt want to know.
The summer people look up, their corrugator muscles contracted, their eyebrows pulled together. Their lips pulled thin and down by triangularis muscle.
The fire alarm stops ringing, and for as long as it takes to draw the next breath, all you can hear is the ocean outside, each wave hiss and burst.
Misty is shouting for everybody to shut up. Everybody, just listen. Shouting, she knows what sheТs talking about. SheТs the greatest artist of all time. The reincarnation of Thomas Gainsborough and Claude Monet and Mary Cassatt. She shouts how her soul has been Michelangelo and da Vinci and Rembrandt.
Then a woman shouts, УItТs her, the artist. ItТs Misty Wilmot.Ф
And a man shouts, УMisty honey, enough with the drama.Ф
The woman shouts, УPull down the curtain, and letТs get this over with.Ф
The man and woman shouting, theyТre Harrow and Grace. Between them, they each hold Tabbi by one hand. Tabbi, her eyes are taped shut.
УThose people,Ф Misty shouts, pointing at Grace and Harrow. Her hair hanging in her face, Misty shouts, УThose evil people, they used their son to get me pregnant!Ф
Misty shouts, УTheyТre holding my kid!Ф
She shouts, УIf you see whatТs behind this curtain, it will be too late!Ф
And Detective Stilton gets to the chair. One step, and heТs up. Another step, and heТs beside her on table six. The huge curtain hanging behind them. The truth about everything just inches away.
УYes,Ф another woman shouts. An old island Tupper, her sea turtle neck sagging into the lace collar of her dress, she shouts, УShow us, Misty!Ф
УShow us,Ф a man shouts, an old island Woods, leaning on his cane.
Stilton reaches one hand behind his back. He says, УYou almost had me thinking you were the sane one.Ф And his hand comes out holding handcuffs. HeТs clicking them on her, pulling Misty away, past Tabbi with her eyes taped shut, past all the summer people shaking their heads. Past the aristocrats of Waytansea Island. Back through the forest glade of the green velvet lobby.
УMy kid,Ф Misty says. УSheТs still in there. We have to get her out.Ф
And Detective Stilton gives her to a deputy in a brown uniform and says, УYour daughter who you said was dead?Ф
They faked her death. Everyone watching, theyТre just statues of themselves. Their own self-portraits.
Outside the hotel, at the foot of the porch steps, the deputy opens the back door of a patrol car. Detective Stilton says, УMisty Wilmot, youТre under arrest for the attempted murder of your husband, Peter Wilmot, and the murder of Angel Delaporte.Ф
Blood was all over her the morning after Angel was stabbed in her bed. Angel about to steal her husband away. Misty, the one who found PeterТs body in the car.
Strong hands shove her into the backseat of the patrol car.
And from inside the hotel, the newscaster says, УLadies and gentlemen, itТs the moment of the unveiling.Ф
УTake her. Print her. Book her,Ф the detective says. He slaps the deputy on the back and says, УIТm going back inside to see what all this fuss has been about.Ф
ACCORDING TO PLATO, we live chained inside a dark cave. WeТre chained so all we can see is the back wall of the cave. All we can see are the shadows that move there. They could be the shadows of something moving outside the cave. They could be the shadows of people chained next to us.
Maybe the only thing each of us can see is our own shadow.
Carl Jung called this his shadow work. He said we never see others. Instead we see only aspects of ourselves that fall over them. Shadows. Projections. Our associations.
The same way old painters would sit in a tiny dark room and trace the image of what stood outside a tiny window, in the bright sunlight.
The camera obscura.
Not the exact image, but everything reversed or upside down. Distorted by the mirror or the lens it comes through. Our limited personal perception. Our tiny body of experience. Our half-assed education.
How the viewer controls the view. How the artist is dead. We see what we want. We see how we want. We only see ourselves. All the artist can do is give us something to look at.
Just for the record, your wifeТs under arrest. But sheТs done it. TheyТve done it. Maura. Constance. And Misty. TheyТve saved her kid, your daughter. SheТs saved herself. TheyТve saved everyone.
The deputy in his brown uniform, he drove Misty back over the ferry to the mainland. Along the way, the deputy read her rights. He passed her off to a second deputy, who took her fingerprints and wedding ring. Misty still in her wedding dress, that deputy took her bag and high-heeled shoes.
All her junk jewelry, MauraТs jewelry, their jewelry, itТs all back in the Wilmot house in TabbiТs shoe box.
This second deputy gave her a blanket. The deputy was a woman her own age, her face a diary of wrinkles starting around her eyes and webbed between her nose and mouth. The deputy looked at the forms Misty was filling out, and she said, УAre you the artist?Ф
And Misty said, УYeah, but just for the rest of this lifetime. Not after that.Ф
The deputy walked her down an old concrete hallway to a metal door. She unlocked the door, saying, УItТs after lights-out.Ф She swung the metal door open and stepped aside, and itТs right there Misty saw it.
What they donТt teach you in art school. How youТre still always trapped.
How your head is the cave, your eyes the cave mouth. How you live inside your head and only see what you want. How you only watch the shadows and make up your own meaning.
Just for the record, it was right there. In the tall square of light from the open cell door, written on the far wall of the little cell, it said:
If youТre here, youТve failed again. ItТs signed Constance .
The handwriting cupped and spread, loving and nurturing, all of itТs her handwriting. In this place MistyТs never been before, but where she ends up, again and again. ItТs then she hears the sirens, long and far way. And the deputy says, УIТll be back to check on you in a little.Ф The deputy steps out and locks the door.
ThereТs a window high up in one wall, too high for Misty to reach, but it must face the ocean and Waytansea Island.
In the flickering orange light from the window, the dancing light and shadow on the concrete wall opposite the window, in this light Misty knows everything Maura knew. Everything Constance knew. Misty knows how theyТve all been fooled. The same way she knew how to paint the mural. The way Plato says we already know everything, we just need to remember it. What Carl Jung calls the universal subconscious. Misty remembers.
The way the camera obscura focuses an image on a canvas, how the box camera works, the little cell window projects a mess of orange and yellow, flames and shadows in a shape on the far wall. All you can hear are the sirens, all you can see are the flames.
ItТs the Waytansea Hotel on fire. Grace and Harrow and Tabbi inside.
Can you feel this?
We were here. We are here. We will always be here.
And weТve failed again.